Do you ever feel like, "I'm
kickin butt and lookin good?" Not in a look at me, look at me kinda way.
Okay that's a lie, in a totally look at me, look at me kinda way. Then you
get around other people and that confidence completely disappears. You
start looking and comparing yourself to others and within a
matter of minutes you feel like all of your hard work was pointless. All the
trips to the gym didn't matter and you start doubting yourself. I do
this ALL the TIME!!
Friday night I was laying my clothes
out for the game and was excited to put on my new game day outfit.
Saturday morning when I got dressed I thought I was looking pretty cute.
THEN we got to Statesboro for the game. I felt like I had the fattest
face and biggest ham arms of anyone out there. Even when getting
to see old friends all I was thinking about was how huge I was. I
thought, "Yeah you've lost 25 pounds but girlfriend you're still a 200
pounder and weigh what most men out here do." The old Kelly came back. The quiet and more reserved Kelly. Now don't get me wrong, I had a fun
time but I can't deny that these things were running through my mind. How silly!!
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| Emily, Me, Rachel, Karley- Can you believe I used to teach these hams and now they are in their junior year of college?! |
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| Lily Blake's (LBR) very first game. Ummm...I love blueberries!! |
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| Hi fellas...looking handsome!! |
I have this theory that the way you
feel about yourself manifests itself in the way you think, feel and treat others...
I'm about to be the vainest and most
cold hearted you've ever seen me be but bare with me. At the tailgate
there was a point when one of our newer extremely pretty friends came
to visit. She's a sweet, sweet girl and is absolutely gorgeous. I
was nice, smiled and we talked but in my mind I was thinking, "Will
you please go away?!" Y'all I was so jealous of her that I wanted her to
go away!! And I'll admit it, this surely isn't the first time in my
life I've thought this about someone.
Sunday I was sitting in church
thinking about my outfit, my hair and how I needed to go pick up some new
makeup. And within a couple minutes of the song service God had a
"Girl you've gotten too big for your britches" talk with me. I
felt tears filling my eyes. I told God I was so sorry for the hateful things
in my mind and to please, please open the eyes of my heart. As I
looked around I saw people who had things going on in their lives that
my pettiness couldn't even compare to.
My challenge to myself this week has
nothing to do with weight loss or looking pretty. My challenge
is to pray for humbleness and read my Bible each day. It's amazing
how a little alone time with God will completely change the way you
treat and think about others. I think this even applies to the way we treat our
spouse. That’s why I also want to start praying with Chris at night. I know
Chris prays, and I know that I pray, but the most precious and powerful form of communication
with our mate occurs when we pray together.
Y’all do I want to be thin, look good
and eat right? Of course, but more than anything else I want to be so busy
loving others that their is no room for hatred in my heart.
Do nothing out of selfish ambition or
vain conceit. Rather, in
humility value others above
yourselves, not looking to your own
interests but each of you to the
interests of the others.
Philipians 2:3-4
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| If you're looking for a good devotional I really like this one. A Gentle Spirit Complied by:Ashleigh Clayton |
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